Sunday, November 20, 2005

Change

The important thing is this: to be able at any moment to sacrifice what we are for what we could become.
Charles Du Bos

Once we've learned a certain way of behaving, we have a hard time changing. Oh, we don't mind changing external things: jobs, locations, clothes. But we have a hard time effecting change within ourselves. We don't like admitting that we could do something different, something better, than what we are doing now.

I am just as guilty as anyone of having difficulty making changes in myself. There are times when it flat-out unnerves me to consider changing. There are times when a friend points out something about me that could be better, and it hurts my pride. But part of being a better person each day is to recognize the things about ourselves that could use some improvement, and then working on changing what is wrong, what could be better.

When I'm objective about it, I can see there are things I could do better, ways that I can improve myself and be a better person. It has taken me a long time to learn that I don't have to beat myself up - that, instead, I can acknowledge my fault and commit to doing something positive about it. And I'm still working on this one.

I know that I can be a better person, a better version of me. Changing for the better isn't about "pretending" to be something you aren't. It's about working to be something better than you currently are. And I know that when my friends find the courage to point out something about me that could use improvement, they are doing so because they care.

Today, with this post, I am acknowledging that there are things about myself that I want to make better. I am saying Thank You to those who've had the courage to tell me things that may not be easy to say.

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